I wanna see the heartbeat of heaven! I wanna see the hear beat of God!

God you are so great!!!!!

Sometimes we forget the greatness of God. He is so great that He never loses patience. He is so great that He can use even the stupidest, slimeyest, most perverted of us!!

I've experienced an anointing of the holy spirit. I've experienced a prophetic calling and yet I feel as if I could just walk away if I so desired. This is the part of me that does not agree with Calvinism. Then again, I did nothing to deserve the great calling the LORD has placed upon me! I've been self-righteous and self-absorbed throughout the whole process, undeserving, unfaithful.... In no way, was my heart ready to receive Him, He took over me. This is the part of me that disagrees with Arminianism. Therefore, I boldly declare that God is beyond understanding and for God's sake, YOU'RE BOTH WRONG!!!!!!!  AND YOU'RE BOTH RIGHT!!  I rejoice to say that my God is so great, that I find joy in praising God, when I see the contrast of my freedom from your blindness! You don't deserve this freedom, but if you just ask Him, He'll give it to you!! ASK HIM!!!

If you are reading this, it's cause God brought you here! I haven't told anyone but my best friend and husband about this blog. God brought you here... Try this song on for size ...

(don't let the video distract you, just listen to what God is speaking to you)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbanJpatHWs

Not baptised, but anointed!

So incase you haven't noticed, I've been actively seeking a filling of the holy spirit. I've prayed for it, worked for it, started pursuing with little success. Tonight was the healing service at this prayer group i've been going to, and to be honest, most of it felt like a blur. At the beginning Kayla said she heard from God that I was going to be a warrior  between the healing service and God and evil. This threw me off a bit (not to mention the "by the way you're leading worship")

I have never been to healing service, let alone lead worship for one! So that was a bit rough to say the least, but HEY! God uses failures! And boy do I qualify for that role! Next to all of the world's rejects who were praising God, speaking in tongues and healing, i felt like the outcast in a corner. It was like a glimpse of heaven, and part of me was saying "well at least i've got something in THIS world"...wow... reality check.....

Then suddnely someone decided we should all stand up and put our hands on each other and start praying for each other. Thats when I felt Kayla's prophecy touch me again. I could feel the evil surrounding us looking for a weak link to break the chain we formed with our arms on each other. I spent most of the prayer time declairing Christ's power and victory. It was pretty neat.  Then the lady next to me asked me what she could pray for, and I told her about my journey to be filled. She began to pray and spoke into my life.

God started to speak to me through her. It was as if he was saying "Krysta, you ARE filled. I AM here. But because I love you, I'll just make that clear" I then felt someones hand on my head, as if a third person joined in praying for me and had placed their hands on my head. Then I felt the hand lift, and felt oil dripping down my head. When she had finished praying, I touched my head and it was dry. I asked her if someone had touched my head and she shrugged.

I could take that as I am a crazy person, but to be honest, I think Christ annointed me with his spirit! I have no idea what it means, but I am 100% confident that he has not only a plan for my life, but a divine calling to which I needed to know I was ordaned for! BRING IT ON! I'M READY!

crazy God!

So i've started going to this bible study on wednesday nights. It's the one where some of the people mentioned earlier were baptised by the spirit and stuff... well nothing crazy has happened in the two weeks i've been going, but God's been doing some crazy work in me!

It's the little things. My distractions seems so small compared to the loud voice calling inside of me from the Lord. I am re-learning how awesome his grace is. How much I dont deserve him. God's saying "get it through your head Krysta! I love you and I'm not leaving!"

I know he's got big plans for me and I am excited to be in His will, bearing his fruit.

Upside down

"We're livin' in a kingdom upside down. If you wanna go up, you have to go down..." These are the words to a children's song that I like...  I've always thought of this concept as refering to servant leadership...now I see it is so much more!

This is a journey that began several months ago, as my best friend was baptised by the holy spirit. She's never been the kind of person I'd expect to  go all charismatic! ...Then her non-believing rather dark friend came to know christ through her...  Then another unorthodox acquaintance of mine was filled and speaking in tongues...Then a good chunk of a friend's youth group was filled...

Funny how the bible college friends in my life are not included in this penticostal-like movement... It seems strange for God to pick the people whom the church doesn't seem to jive with... The people who dont get alot out of a sunday morning service... It seems strange that God picked the ones who weren't trying all that hard to make their way in the kingdom.  Two of these darker individuals recieved the laughter of the holy spirit! Isn't THAT upside down all on it's own!

More and more I am beginning to see how upside down God's kingdom truly is.

First Post

For some reason, I took the naming of this blog extremely seriousely... the funny part, is that the name came to me before I fully comprehended the term "estranged"...I sort of assumed it just meant strange, but it really doesn't.  I'll give ya some deffinitions.

Estranged: 1 : to remove from customary environment or associations
2 : to arouse especially mutual enmity or indifference in where there had formerly been love, affection, or friendliness
(A.K.A. Alienation)
Normality: The property of conforming to a norm...

So basically the story of my life! I am called to a life greater than this. This is not my home and in a way, I have always felt a bit estranged. The normality in my life can be seen in my journey to become a professional. I have now taken four years of schooling to learn how to conform to a norm in the helping profession...  Funny, how Christ's helpers were all somewhat estranged...